For My Dear Daddy

From my childhood

I remember my daddy being big and warm

Strong and funny

Always helping us build something awesome

Either it was a water slide on our backyard

Or the highest tree house of the neighborhood

Daddy always encourage us to try something crazy

Something exciting

Like sliding down the rapid with a rowing boat

Or squeezing my fingers around an air mattress

Which was fixed behind our motor boat

When I grow older

I growth out of the innocent child's world

Part of the family pain was laid on my shoulders

I started to hate

Hate my life

Hate the world's injustice

Hate my daddy

For many years I felt alone

I was lost in the darkness

From there I found Him

God told me that I'm not alone

He will always be with me

He will always be my Father

And I will always be His daughter

And He is really proud of me

At same time I almost lost my daddy

But he fought his way back to this life

God gave us a second change

For me and my daddy

And with God's love

I learned to love again

Love the world

Love my life

Love my daddy

<3 I love you daddy <3

On this year

I prepared a dinner

For the Father's Day

Only best

For my dear daddy

*******

~ Father's Day menu 2016 ~

Peanut Butter Chicken

(gluten free, lactose free)

400 g chicken

1 tbs oil

some curry

1/2 of red, yellow and green sweet paprika

2 dl water

1 chicken stock cube

400 ml coconut milk

6 tbs peanut butter (non sweetened)

1 tbs soy sauce

1 - 5 tsp chili paste

some black pepper

Cut the chicken and roast it on a pan with oil and curry. Slice the paprika's.

Add water, stock cube, coconut-milk, paprika slices, peanut-butter and spices to the pan.

Boil the sauce 10-15 minutes.

Serve with boiled rice, veggies and fresh salad.

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  Raspberry Mud Pie

(gluten free, lactose free)

175 g butter (lactose free)

2 eggs

2 1/2 dl sugar

6 tbs dark cacao powder

1 1/2 tsp vanilla sugar

2 1/2 dl gluten free flour

100 g raspberries (frozen)

2 tsp sugar

For decoration:

icing sugar

raspberries

2 dl whipped cream (lactose free)

Warm the oven to 180 Celsius degree.

Melt the butter and let it cool down a bit in a room temperature.

Whip the eggs and sugar to fluffy paste.

Add butter, cacao powder, vanilla sugar and gluten free flour to the eggs and sugar.

Mix paste smooth and pour it to buttered

and crumbed cake tin with loose bottom (diameter 22 - 23 cm).

Sprinkle raspberries and some sugar on top of the paste.

Bake on oven's middle level 25 - 30 minutes.

(Baking time depends on how muddy you wanna the pie be)

Let the pie cool down in the cake tin.

Loose the sides of the tin and move the pie on a serving dish.

Sprinkle some raspberries on top of the pie and decorate with whipped cream.

Sieve some icing sugar on the top.

Bon Appétit!

Three Stages of the Camino / Caminon kolme tasoa

Camino Santiago de Compostela

 They say there is three stages on your camino

And one by one you will travel through them all

When or where, no one can tell you

But you will know, when you are there

This is a story of my personal experience
Of those three stages on my camino

First stage – The physical stage

The journey beguines
You will get to know your body

You are finding new things about your body

You will learn your physical limits

You will do things, you didn’t know you are capable of

For me this meant blisters, shin splints, broken knees

And leg pain which kept me awake during the nights

Eventually
I learned to take it easy
But in the hard way

I didn’t want to stop

I wanted to get forward

I could almost see the goal glowing in the horizon

Although there were still over 800 km left and we had just started

I didn’t have time to stop for every wonder I saw on the way

I don’t have time, I’m walking here!

Then God made me stop

I broke my knee in the deep downhill

I didn’t fall

I just didn’t listen to my body

And in the end of the day
I couldn’t step on my foot anymore

The next day I could walk again

Real slowly

We started walking before sunrise
To win some time
But during the morning we saw how people walked past us

Countless bag packs vanishing somewhere ahead of us

Instead of thinking how slowly I was going forward
I started to look what was around me

I stopped for weird plants

I touched and smelled them

There was so much beautiful and amazing things all around
I started to relax

I enjoyed the day a lot

The next morning I was able to walk normally again

But something inside of me had changed
I enjoyed briskly walking 

I stopped more often for wonders

I saw more
I felt more

I wasn't willing to slow down by myself
So God made me slow down

I learned my lesson
And He let me heal

I started to respect the deep downhill’s
And came down real carefully
Knowing my own physical limits
But never giving up
Never losing my faith
Knowing
He will always walk beside me

Second stage – The mental stage

Anyone can recognize the first stage
It beguines on the first day of their camino

But how do you know you have reached the second stage?

We were wondering this with the other pilgrims
And I think I can speak for all of us, when I say

Trust me, you will definitely know when things starts to go mental

For me it started when I cried first time on the camino

Or at least this was the moment I realized it
I had reached the second stage of my camino

There started to be a lot of feelings involved

A lot of conflicts and distress
A lot of mixed and negative energy

For me this was real uneasy stage of my camino

Many times I found myself wondering
When would this end?

My own distressed feelings were bothering me
And I knew
For reaching the spiritual stage

I would have to be above all of this
Of this shit I was throwing around in my head

But how the hell it would be possible?

So I gave up
I accept my feelings
Didn't try to make them disappear

Maybe on my camino there would be only two stages

Third stage – The spiritual stage

We had almost reached the end of the physical camino

Few days and we could say we did it

In these days I realized it

It felt like someone would had turned the lights on

I could see everything more clearly

I could feel the change in my body

I found myself feeling happiness and joy

The distress was still in me

But it didn’t control me anymore

I was feeling happy despite the negative feelings inside me

No more was I looking the world through my distress

It couldn’t control my reactions and words anymore
It didn't have the power

I could observe my reactions inside me

I could choose how I wanted to act

I could choose how I wanted to express myself

I felt free, truly free

Free from myself

In a way

The camino felt longer than just 35 days

It felt like a life time

I knew this would be a life changing experience
God wouldn't lead me on this camino for nothing
But still

I learned more than I was expecting
More about myself, other people and world itself
About life itself

And now
Sitting at home and writing this
I have a feeling
That the learning will continue
A long time after this journey has ended

When I have settled down
Back to my normal life

But for me the normal life won’t be the same anymore

For us who have walked the camino

Our life will be so much more than it used to be

More deeper and more colorful
We had spent a life time away

From this 'normal' world

The people who can truly know the meaning of this

Who have been on the same kind of journey

Shared the camino with you

They can truly understand your experience

After all it feels like
You have already known each other
For a life time

Con mucho cariño a

Bear Family

Jumalan temppeli / The Temple of God

- Mäntyharju -

Usein toistetaan

On Mäntyharjun kirkko

Suurin hirsikirkko

Ainakin tällä pallon puoliskolla

Ylpeästi

Koreillen

Ei Pertunmaalta moista löydy

Ei edes Pyhän Mikaelin kaupungista

Ja onhan se

Komea rakennus

Ihmisiltä paljon ponnisteluja vaatinut

Luulisi Jumalalle kelpaavan

Vaan ei moni tiedä

Johtaa suuren kirkon takaa polku

Metsän siimekseen

Veden äärelle

Täälläkin sijaitsee

Jumalan temppeli

Suurin ja kaunein

Jonka milloinkaan olen nähnyt

Tässä Herran huoneessa

Katto kohoaa taivaisiin saakka

Seinät on koristeltu taitavimman maalarin siveltimellä

Alttari risti on luomakunnan taitavimpien puuseppien työtä

Tämä ei ole ihmisen rakentama temppeli Herralleen

Tämä on Isän rakentama huone lapsilleen

Istuessaan täällä

Voi Isän käden jäljen nähdä kaikkialla

Tuntea Hänen kasvojensa lämmön ihollaan

Rauhaisan kuiskuttelunsa puiden latvoissa

Jakamattoman läsnäolonsa sisimmässään

Jer. 23:11

Syvä luottamus ja rauha valtaa sielun

Tässä hetkessä kaikki on hyvin

Juuri niin kuin täytyy olla

Joh. 14:1

Sisimmästä kumpuaa varmuus

Luottamus itseensä

Omiin kykyihinsä

Usko siihen

Että elämä kyllä kantaa

Joh. 3:16

Täällä

Todellisuuden äärellä

Ylivoimaisten odotusten ulottumattomissa

Voi huokaista helpotuksesta

Löytää armon itseään

Ja inhimillisyyttä kohtaan

Todellisuuden peilin äärellä

Riisuttuna kaikesta turhasta

Paljaana

Totuudellisena itselleen

Haavoittuvana

Voi löytää oman voimansa

         

Ps. 139:13-14

Ps. 91:13-14

Hetki hetken jälkeen

Elämäämme neulotaan

Valitsemillamme väreillä

Jokainen hetki on pieni ihme

Elämämme suuri värikäs

Ihmeellinen tilkkutäkki

Rakkaudella kokoon kursittu

Joh. 15:12

      

Jes. 43:1

Ps. 34:5

Sydän avoinna

On helppo uskoa

Meitä suojellaan kaikelta

Mitä ikinä keksimmekään pelätä

Eikä ole sellaista pimeää

Jota Hänen hellä kosketus ei torjuisi

Emme ole yksin

Takaisin kävelee kevyemmin askelin

Kirkon maalla jää taas pohtimaan

Tarvitaanko tätä kaikkea

Ihmisen vaivannäköä

Suuria kivisiä saleja

Hurskaita sanoja

Rukousmattoja

Oikeita ilman suuntia

Ken tietää

Jos se auttaa uskomaan

Ei siitä haittaakaan liene

Minunkin on helpointa uskoa

Äiti luonnon vehreydessä

Tunnen Hänen läsnäolonsa voimakkaimmin

Vaikka juttelenhan minä Isälle

pyöräillessä ja tiskatessakin

Enkä koe saaneeni vähemmän

- Rakkautta -